Monday, August 31, 2015

This blog post has been a long time in the writing.  I knew God wanted me to write it, but it was extremely difficult to get it out.  He would not let me write anything else until I finished it.  So it has been over a month since I have blogged, or even written anything for that matter until I could finish this, because in some ways, I was still living in a “WHY ME” attitude.  He has taught me a lot this last month or so, so here is my long time coming post on “WHY NOT ME?”




Why Not Me?


Most of us prefer the seasons in life when everything is going along well, and there is nothing really hard to deal with.  I think it is safe to say, that even though there are seasons in life when the storms are raging, or we are wandering in the middle of winter, and can’t feel God’s warmth, we would much rather live life in an easy carefree summer existence.  I know I would.


photo by patty

 I think most of us would also say, what when the storms were raging is when we felt His presence in our lives the most. 


Three years ago I lost my husband unexpectedly, and then just two days later, when I lost my dad to a long term illness, I know some of my first words, (when I finally found my voice) were “WHY ME?”  I mean I was working for God in both my professional life and at church, I volunteered in just about every ministry that asked for help.  So why was God doing this to me?  Even if we are not neck deep in ministry, I have heard time, and time again from believers and non-believers alike those two little words when trouble rears its ugly head. 


The truth is however, that God does not promise a life free of trouble.  In fact, He promises the exact opposite.  In this world we will have trouble.


John 16: 33 These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”


    So if God promises that in this world we will have trouble, how do we have hope through our troubles?  How do we not just curl up into a ball and give up?  Well, there was a time that I actually did this.  All I wanted to do was go to sleep, and when I woke up all of my trouble would be gone.  But guess what, when I woke up trouble was not gone. 


    The second half of his promise was for us to take courage, or in other translations, is says to “take heart” because Jesus has overcome the world.  I have said before, when a test comes to our lives, we can either become bitter, or we can become better; and if we allow God to make us better, we then become bolder for Him.  He did overcome the world, so, no matter what comes our way, we have that knowledge that we too can become overcomers.


photo by patty

If you are like me, sometimes it takes a while for things to travel the 18 inches from my head to my heart.  I knew all of these things when I lost my husband and my dad, but the “why me” was still on my lips, and in my heart.  I knew in my head that God had the best for me, that He would always take care of me, but in my heart I wanted things to get back to the way they were, to wake up from my sleep and everything that had happened be just a bad dream.  But God had other plans.


The “Why Me” started to turn into, “Why Not Me?”  What makes me any different than others who have experienced loss, or, other hard ship, or cancer, or divorce, or any kind of trail that can come in this life?  Nothing.  The only thing that makes me any different, if that God promised me Himself through that trial. 


I have made it part of my daily devotion, to thank God for the trial He has given me.  I thank Him for what He will do to prove Himself faithful to me today, and I pray that He use my trial to show others how faithful He is so they can trust Him in their own personal trail.

So the next time you find yourself in a trial, try, even if it is hard, take a step back.  Say “Why not me?” and ask God to be your everything in the trail, ask Him to make you better through it, then ask him how He can use you in this trail to help others. Take courage today, Jesus did overcome the world, and for that, we can become bolder!